To Al: You're closer to the truth than anyone so far...all the guys I
know just want to love me and spoil me because I'm pretty and sweet.
None of them want to rape or hurt me. Which sucks for me, and my
fantasy. I mean I'm sure I could talk one of them into doing it, if
they knew how much it meant to me, but then it would be consensual.
The second I give a guy permission to do anything, I've just spoiled my
fantasy. The only thing worse would be a safe word. I know that noone
will probably ever understand any of this.
Luv,
Kitty